first day nerves

Hello everyone :)
I arrived in Brisbane Australia last night around 7 pm, Oz time. The flight in total took around 24 hours. It was crazyyy. Saying goodbye the past few weeks has been so emotionaly draining. Leaving Kent and everything I knew, seemed unreal and as if all along I have been talking about another girl leaving and not me. It only hit me that I was leaving till I was getting on the plane, and I was alone. The past weekend, has been amazing. Its reminded me of how much I'm going to miss home and how lucky i am that i have been blessed with so many loyal friends and the most amazing family.
We left for the airport around 7 am Sunday morning, and I can say I don't think I have cried ever so much in my life and waving goodbye to my mum was the hardest thing EVER.
But I'm pretty reasured the God will protect me and look after me.
I was a bag of nerves on my first flight , and I did'nt manage to stop crying nearly the whole way there, things didnt help when I decided to watch 'my sisters keeper' on the plane. The people sitting next to me were probably worried. The flight to Signapore took 13 hours. I had major pins and needles, so walking to the toilet i looked like a right idiot. I loved the fact that there was free food on demand. I had a million and one coffees and hot chocolates. This didnt help the nerves, by now I had the shakes.
I watched around 3 films, and a few edipsodes of the inbetweeners. WOW. But these planes, were no ryan air. It was massive, and had an upstairs and a downstairs. And a bar! And carpet, and the seats were allocated not like the usual ryan air, where its pretty much 'run and get a good window seat!
Getting off at Signapore was a nightmare, I had no idea which gate I had to be in. So i freaked out, just a bit. But I overheard this lovely safe-looking old couple saying they were going to Brisbane at the same time as my one, and so i stalked them to their gate! Thankfully, it was the right one. Okay, hands down Signapore airport is thee best airport in the world. Its so big and so nice. And all the air hostess' wear pretty chineese dresses and have their hair in buns.
Okay so my next flight was around 10 am , signapore time. The flight was about 10 hours. This one didnt seem like such a lifetime as the last one. I sat next to this girl , and she didnt talk much english so she just nodded and smiled when i was screaming and shouting about being excited when we was landing, i suppose the essex accent didnt help.
Coming in to Australia was so exciting, I nearly wet myself! I no longer felt scared or nervous. But so confirmed in my feelings that I was doing the right thing.
When i arrived in Brisbane australia, I was fascinated with the accent, every security guard and person i talked to sounded like they had just stepped out of home and away. I had no idea who was going to be there to pick me up or what they looked like, so I stood there and did the usual esther thing and cried. And then two girls, Andy and Jess had a massive sign saying 'YWAM'. I got so excited. They drove me to the YWAM base where I will be staying. Its really lovely and big. I was so tired, but i couldnt get to sleep at all, because your time was around 11.00 am then. I'm sharing with about 12 girls, Im the first one to arrive. Ive unpacked, and realised I didnt pack a hairbrush or sheets.. whats wrong with me !!? so i was to embaressed to ask anyone, and ended up shivering to death. I was so confused last night and was wondering why I was here. What was i thinking, I had only been in Australia for an hour and I was begging my mum to come home. Good start.. But things were better in the morning , i was awakened by some birds that sounded like savage monkeys outside my window. I changed about 5 times in the morning, i had no idea what to wear. The dress code is modest, and if anyone knows me, I wear denim skirts that look like belts and dresses that clearly dont fit me, I always have the theory that one day ill lose enough weight to look good in them, but i found a nice outfit and i wore a cardigan. MISTAKE! Its really hot! I found some people downstairs, this guy called steven (i think) hannah and jess and we went to this big meeting for the staff as known of the students have turned up yet. Apparently Im the only english person here. I will have no one to drink tea with and I dont even drink tea!
The meeting was good and scary. Everyone seems like a big family and really close. Im so excited but feeling a bit lonely. I miss home and my mum.
Going to the mall.. lol! the mall.. after lunch! But Im really not hungry its like 2 am your time!
The guys are hot here, surfer dude looking and the girls are stunning!
I have never felt so alone in my life, but at the same time I have never felt so loved.
I will keep you updated maybe in a couple of days time.
But I just wanted to say i am safe and well! lots and lots of love - missing home, est x