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Once again, this is a brief, poorly wrote blog ! I am having an amazing AMAZING time. I expected i would of been pretty tired and stressed with the schedule that's forced on us every day , but I am so full of joy and energy all of the time.
This week i have been learning that God cannot be put in to a schedule nor can he be reduced to a Sunday , we carry his presence everywhere we go. He lives inside of me. I am tired of living a comfortable christian life . I'm sick of living this double life. I'm like vapour, like a passing fog- here today, gone tomorrow. I want God to manifest my whole life , to dictate my thoughts , for my actions to be only good, that my mouth will only speak out encouragement. I want my discernment to be heightened, I don't want to pray words like "God i pray your my focus" and then listen to a song or watch a film that has an absence of Him and slanders his name. I want to put LOVE into action and not just words.
I want to live a radical life style for him, I'm done with conforming , the world is constantly changing , and all we do is chase after it. God is never changing , he is consistent.
This does not mean I will become some kind of nun. God does not want us to sacrifice up our personalities, he created humour and laughter.

Within my team i have been praying every morning against pride. During intercession times, i have been hesitant to pray , because sometimes i feel as if our prayers are just a show and we are just competing against one another for who can have the best prayer. But I felt God tell me that being passive , is just as bad as sinning . Having a prayer that will change the atmosphere at the tip of the tongue and not sharing it upsets God just as much . Plus, I'm just talking to God, i can stumble over my words and mess up, I'm just having a conversation with my dad. No prayer is ever wasted. So, I have been stepping out every day , praying in faith that people will be healed with cancer, leading prayer for a girl who was kidnapped.

Yesterday , we went to a woman's house from the Church, she asked for us to pray for her father who was suffering lung cancer and was predicted only a few weeks to live. I could of easily prayed for peace to come over him and just comfort . But , wake up! Cancer is not from God. It is from the enemy. We came into this world healthy and we will leave this world healthy . Illnesses like cancer, are demonic, we need to come up against them. I have built up such a strong faith since i have been in Africa. I have stopped putting God in to a box. I know who my God is , and i know he can cure cancer in a snap of a finger, i know he can surpass all understanding of the world, against any prescription or medication doctors subscribe.

Today, we have been doing train evangelism, singing on the trains and talking to people. I love it so much , if anyone knows me, I have no fear of man. I am the epitome of unshamefulness. As we were coming back from Capetown station, there was a man, who was so withered and thin, lying on the ground in the station. Crowds of people were around him, laughing at him as he tried to get up and fell back down, tonnes of people had cameras and phones out mocking him. I was sick sick sick to the CORE.... I pushed through the crowd, which probably was not that wise of me to separate myself from the group. Capetown is one of the most dangerous places in the world. We are never allowed alone the entire time we are here, even to the grocery shop 5 minutes away from the church ... Every ones packing a gun. I went to my knees, and this other woman came up as well, we lifted him up and carried him out of the station, ushering people out of the way . It was like he was an animal. He was so hard hearted, he was cursing the security guards and shouting at random people viciously. He only listened to me, i prayed for him in his ear, as people were swamping him, my team stayed close to me... so i was safe. He was crying , he said that the hospital chucked him out, at night people walk all over his body , he has TB and AIDS, his wife died... But he still has faith. I was awestruck by this man's hope. I blame God for the smallest things like if i miss a TV show. Of course, again, i cried and cried in front of him. I was not scared of his flaking skin, or his white spotted tongue, or pussy eyes. I looked straight into them and saw Jesus. One of the church leaders came up to me, i begged him if i could take him back to the church and look after him. He talked me out of it , it would be unwise and unloving , we cannot give him the medication he needed. So we called for an ambulance, and our Church leader is going to give me the ward number, so i can visit him.

Miracles are happening daily! God is so good. He protected a girl who was kidnapped by her boyfriend that morning, we prayed all day long , and that night God brought the girl home.
This week, has been the Church's evangelism launch , they have been having open air services in Leonsdale.. i shared my testimony again. I am more comfortable with it . I get so passionate and excited now I think i am about to explode. I talked about how God did not come to die for our sins only for us to wallow in our self pity and self hatred , he came to give us FREEDOM! This week, a verse that has spoken to me specifically is the one in 2 Corinthians, i think, about how we are like fragile clay pots, but we have this amazing treasure inside of us!

Overall, I am having the bestest time, I never want it to ever end. I am learning more and more each day especially not to care about other people's opinons as much as i used to stress and worry about judgements over me, but to only truly cherish God's thoughts about me, which are only proud and GOOD ones. To love others, but to love myself and not be trampled over.

I belly laugh every day ! My team are the best ! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE froms south africa. x